This is koda
I am sitting downstairs, the phone volume is muted and when I get a text my apple watch vibrates. No noise, just the wobble
I login to Paypal, get a 2FA text, watch vibrates, no other noise
I get a BBC alert, vibration, no noise
I get a security cam alert, same
No matter what arrives – and this has been happening for quite some time, it’s just that vibrate
This is koda
but when Jennifer texts?
Before the watch vibrates, koda starts barking
We are both downstairs, koda is out of my line of sight yet she will spring up and start barking – and then my watch vibrates.
Just now I had 3 texts, 2 from Jennifer, 1 from another source. Koda barked only at the two from Jennifer.
Koda cannot be ‘reading’ my reaction because (1) she can’t see me and (2) this happens before I get a notif about the first text.
Odd. Sort of cute, definitely noisy, but odd.
Widows on the Pain of Dining Alone
I’ve not made a proper cooked meal since Jacqui died.
The oven has been used maybe 4 times for a frozen pizza
The rest of the double range machine has not been used
The air fryer once for home made falafel
The slow cooker, maybe once a week I’ll chop some onions, mushrooms, throw in a tin of beans and make it warm.
The dining table is dismantled.
Tesco keeps a list for you of what you have bought online over the last year so in 5 or so weeks all the food I used to buy for Jacqui will drop away.
I loved cooking, cooking for the family. When the kids were at home we always ate at 6pm watching The Simpsons, or Hollyoaks. I loved cooking food that Jacqui wanted. Now though there’s no point. I don’t do takeaways, I don’t order food at the pub. I live on hummus, coleslaw and tortilla wraps. Maybe rice cakes. Easy, no fuss, little prep or washing up.
In many ways it is easier for me as life transitioned slowly from 4 to 3 to 2 and I knew she would go. It must be so much harder when it comes out of the blue. The effect is the same though – what was a pleasure, what was a good time of day turns into an empty experience every single day.
Jacqui used to all the money stuff but she has not been able to for a few years now. Everything is now locked behind passwords that are in my control. And that’s a problem.
If I get hit by a bus (unlikely as they stopped bus services to this little village, but you know what I mean) then all the accounts are locked away from my daughters who would have to step in and help.
So I’ve written out a text file and printed it off. It’s sitting over to my left in the printer. It has the following passwords detailed:
2 Phone banking apps
I think that covers it….
Finally, finally, we have a new care package in place for Jacqui which starts tomorrow. Better times than the previous one, more flexible than the previous one and they do provide specialist Multiple Sclerosis nursing care. So that’s all good.
I updated to macOS Sierra last night and today my wifi has randomly dropped the connection at least a dozen times. That’s the last time I update an Apple OS on the initial release. In contrast my Windows 10 PC has been perfect.
Have an image:
and yes, bovine tracheas are a dog treat thing. Koda loves them.
This was Koda on Xmas Eve
and this is her today