I joined meetup.com a while ago and the Widow/Widowers group I started is ticking over. 11th meeting this week. I had joined a few others too and Friday I decided to actually go to one.
It was for drinks in the city, wide age range so why not?
I wasn’t long after people began arriving that it started to make me feel not right.
At the recent Automattic GM I coped badly with the constant noise and social interaction. Last night was much of the same. The pub was packed and very loud.
Maybe it’s because I’m older, maybe it’s because getting so close to new people just to talk/hear makes me feel uncomfortable, maybe it’s something else. It got too much though so I stepped outside. I msgd the group and said I was there just in case anyone noticed (no-one did) and after some time went to a different pub for a drink (The Globe). I got a taxi home later.
The people I did meet were nice, maybe if I went again I’d like it more but no, I can’t willingly put myself into a social situation where I do not feel comfortable. Having to SHOUT is not good.
J would have been pleased I’d gone out. There is no Debbie Downer about it, but it’s just not for me. I removed myself from the group this morning.