I noticed the number of drafts when I moved the blog – quite a few of them. I think I once edited a post over a day or so but otherwise I just typed and hit Publish. These drafts though were all unfinished posts. If I added up the drafts plus the ‘untitled1 unititled2′ etc that littered the desktop and Documents and also added the posts I write elsewhere I do in fact blog something every day.

The untitled docs that lie around are the result of my quitting the editor and just saving to get the quit complete. But that was unsatisfying because I never read the words again and although I didn’t want to read them I needed to do so. I am not organised enough to keep track of these temporarily important files. So I got a  blog. It’s on a domain no-one knows is mine, it’s on another host and I use Ecto to blog there. I bought Ecto when I started doing Support and people would say they had problems with it – the only way to know and help was to buy it. But I use it because what I type there cannot be written here – using another program rather than the dashboard (where I am now) helps the separation. There are 3 reasons why I am not doing blogging the words here it, but the main one is I don’t want people to read it. (The three: J and the girls will read it, my words would be twisted by others, it’s private). I write, I publish. The blog does not ping, is linked nowhere. And the next time I write I read what I wrote, I think a little about what happened since and I delete it. There is only ever one post there, no more. And because I write there I am not writing here. It helps me think, cope with anger / frustration, think about the future, plan things that will never come to fruition (I have an identi.ca account for those fleeting GRrrr moments).

I have this need to split what I write, to keep the private private. I really don’t want you knowing stuff but I do want to write it and I do want to then read it – and a blog is the perfect place. So why write this? So I could write a post here for a change :) But it will tie in with another post that should see the light of day soon.