Odd thing this ‘blogging’ malarkey. I want to write, I want to be read, but then sometimes I want to write in the same place but I don’t want it to be read, or I don’t want it to be commented on, but I do want to write.
Writing becomes a therapy, a coping mechanism, a useful way of ‘thinking out loud’ – a habit. For a lot of topics, where it is written about matters little, but when it comes to personal stuff, it matters a whole lot.
I think it’s a truism to say that if you don’t want people to know things, then you really shouldn’t be putting it on the internet. Most of don’t have the skills to really lock access down definitively – including against bots. Using passwords is a step in the right direction, but then you need to take great care that not only is your password really secure, but that you trust your friends too – they can not only pass the password on, but were you to use IP permissions in the htaccess file, they could instead pass over the entire contents. I have had such protected places in this domain before – they have gone – and I have set up numerous .htaccess protected blogs for people too. Despite knowing what I do about .htaccess (which is some, but not enough), I’m not doing it again. I’ve thought about it, and I nearly did so last night, but no.
Writing words on my domain means the words are mine. Writing words and putting my name against them also brings effects back to my door. But writing them away from here, under a name you do not know and will not associate with me gives me freedom. Freedom to write what I like, yet coupled with the need to censure myself so as to keep everything unlinked – and by the reader unlinkable. It’s been done by others, and I think it’ll work for me.